Starting over. Again.

It has been years since my last post!  How faithful I was going to be, creating a legacy for my kids to stumble upon someday!  Wretched life gets in the way.

For the past 2.67 years I have been the only marketing person at an engineering services company.  One important thing to know about engineers is that they believe in their heart of hearts that everything they design and build is so deeply and truly wonderful that there should actually be no marketing or selling required.  In fact, people should line up at the door to buy their systems and ask them to take more money, PLEASE.  A marketing person is a necessary evil who should be paid as little as possible, because after all she is really nothing but overhead.

So when an old friend called me and asked me to come be the Director of Sales and Marketing for his small but growing NON engineering company, I said yes.  Finally, decades after giving up my high powered MBA based career to raise children, I was going to be working at my pay grade again!  Then the Saturday before I was to start work, a week after leaving my old job, my friend called me to say the offer had been withdrawn.  Catastrophe at the company, nothing to do with me.  He looked like he hadn't slept in a week.  He brought a check, we had a beer with him, and after he left I sat down and cried.

The job search has begun.  And it sucks.  So here I go, knowing that I should be trusting God with my future but still waking up in a cold sweat most mornings.  We won't go hungry, Jim's job ensures that.  But two private colleges won't pay for themselves.  So I network and I fill out online applications and I pray and I quote Joshua 1:9 - Be strong and courageous, do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.  If I say it really LOUD maybe soon I will start acting like I believe my own words.